incomplete.

Unbroken promises, Unspoken words, Unwritten memories...

There is this indescribable joy in leaving things unfinished...you know you can always revisit it...you knows ther is someone waiting for you....you know the rules...and you can come back and play the game again...better prepared this time...a smarter person this time... and more likely to have the happy ending we all desire!

Promises are made to be broken...heard this more than a decade back and keep hearing it again...almost comes as a matter of fact...a hard truth of life....

Unbroken promises...ah, too good to be true....mainly cos we seem to promise in a jiffy...or are just too lost to care enough...with a promise, you create a longing....a hope...and most importantly, a faith...which can go a long way in building real relationships...we can argue that there are so many layers to this...yet, by keeping things simple and honouring the promises we make, life could be a highway again.

Unspoken words....we've heard time and again, that we shouldn't leave anything unspoken...eliminate all the what if's and say what your heart wanted to tell...agreed, totally....but here we are talking about relationships that are beyond this....already reached the next level....where enough has been spoken and heard...and we don't have to worry about words not spoken...where the beauty of life comes through sharing....sharing the comfortable silences...which only they could interpret...and revel in that discovery.!

There is this indescribable joy in unwritten memories...leaving things without a trail...cos the trail exists...almost scene by scene , in your mind...in yourself and the ones whom you shared the joy with...and it remains in its purest form, cos noone else knows about it...will know about it....will talk about it....and cos noone should too.

it was something special....not necessarily perfect...yet, special...to the point that it almost becomes sacred.

these are after all, the memories that make a life.. worth living! :)

patterns

why do we do something

... ... and then we do it again

how easy is it to romance the trap.

and get lost in the oh-so-sweet nap..

and there is yet a heart that always yearns.

for so little and so much more...

life is made of precious moments.

and relationships through that 2 way door..

When Peace and Peace collide..

in an ideal world, we would like every relation to be the same.. that is, perfect...as in, having the freedom of telling what we feel, at that very moment, to everyone we meet over the course of day, year and life....and having the strength and wisdom to accept the repartees that come along...ofcrs, its impossible...and is mainly due to the a couple of facts...first, that we don't know people good enough when we meet them...so, we don't know how they will react...and secondly, cos we are so used to putting up a face and portraying a different and stronger/smarter me...to impress the junta....

its our insecurity acting gloriously in the second case, mostly....and it makes us soo soo different from the real us....infact, even to keep the inner you pure is such a challenge....so easy it is, to love your pretense and totally wanna be like him/her...afterall, we put it on to impress the world at large...what works for a majority around you should work for you as 

well....but then, we realize that "you are as unique as everyone else"...and the ones who 

understand this remain truly special....

we all have our mood swings...some more than others....some more than normal...they love living on the edge...swinging sideways...but it aint a fun ride...not soo when u r feeling crazy every now and then....and bored....yet, its again something totally personal....so, we shuld have the ability to isolate it from anyone around...and welcome the arrival of the 2nd person as an angel...esp when its someone you can relate to...at any level...easier said than done, again...mostly...sadly!

so, now that its clear in our mind, ki its impossible to have perfection in most rlsps...we lower our aim to something that seems totally human....almost like aiming at simple life after aiming at the moon and stars....this rationalization doesn't help either, as we see that people still lie or try to put words in your mouth...try to run away from the truth...fear their feelings...havent we spoken or heard, lots of times, the lie which is so blatant that we know even before it is spoken....to the few people that make your life a better life....doesn't it hurt us even a teeny weeny bit.!? maybe they hope that u wont b able to catch the lie...or the pretense....but as far as hopes go, pretty doomed this one is, from the start...you obviously know the person well enough to read his mind ...and lines.....and secretly pray they wouldnt say so.

 

is it really that difficult to put up a straight face and say what you really want to say....esp. to the precious few people...5 at max....every time....and i mean, every single time....

if we can do it...i think we have reached perfection in life...however, pompous we may sound.

afterall, having these 3-4 perfect rlsnsps thru the life is as close to a 21st century utopia, as it can be. 

Wish !

wat happens to ur wish when it aint achieved soon...it probably depends on how strong it was...which in an extreme form would actually make it our aim or goal in life...life's vocation.

is there anything soo strong to be labelled as vocation?!

wat if all u wished for comes true...u r super happy, enjoy it and move on...but wat if it becomes the pinnacle of ur achievements and somehow, u just cant reach that level(of ...) again..then, ur mind keeps going back to things that were,,,and seek solace from them, bit by bit...almost like basking in past glory...good that it is, it stops yu from fully enjoying the present...and thereby, 

succeeds in making the future worse.

so, does that basically mean that life is all about moving from one wish to another...clearing 'em up...like we move up in school and get wiser and wiser and wiser :)...

hmm, maybe..but if a class suddenly seems too tough and we get stuck on it...we need teachers then to guide us, thats were true frens turn up...and unlike school, we r allowed to skip a grade or two...or even more!

another difference is that while every grade is school is relatively tougher than the previous...our wishes can be as different as chalk and cheese..and they are, mostly.

coming back to a strong wish...there is a big danger of it turning into an obsession... which obviously has the capacity to take control of your mind and body...and send yu into an  irrevocable cycle..or maybe not! :)

life's vocation...loosely translates into one's calling in life...something that we are seemingly sent to do/achieve in life by powers that be...how many of us truly know it anyway...what are we supposed to do when we dunno what it is!...

and most importantly, is a lack of vocation such a bad thing...

me, for one, surely thinks so.

.

Life is but a series of never ending goodbyes !?!

spangled thoughts

among so many other things happening around us.......

somebody somewhere misses someone......

in the bigger scheme of things.....

does it really matter....

how i wonder....

i wonder...

 

:)

Equality.

e q u a l i t y ... how important is it ?!!

it gives us memorable moments... makes the tomorrows eagerly awaited...and also helps to sustain everything, in d long run....it also gives a sense of respect...and immense pride.

we can even extend it to symmetry...wherein one completes the other...and thus makes the relationship/rivalry click....and last..

its not to say...that we don't need the differences...we do...the quirkier, the better...ones that make us root for someone...ones that make us fall in love...ones that make us learn.....become a part of the other/better/ideal.... the ideals...there are so many...so many within us....but to each his own....n therein lies the essense of quirkyness....which makes each one of us unique.

but equality is paramount...in fact most imp....else everything will go/want to go haywire....and should too....to a place/time where we again find equals....and life shall start anew!

how easy it is...where does revenge step in...where all we look at...i wonder..

and how many times we leave it all to fate!


Life turns a full circle.

Joy of life!

There are so many occasions when we (all) root for the underdog...

There are so many layers to it as we almost unconsiously fall for them.

Its really amazing to see the joy we get whenever the underdogs win...
its almost mystical, this feeling that connects across the man-made boundaries and races...feel its probably cos we are never so lucky in real life.. it goes way too predictably and maybe, boring, in the long run...


So, actually there is a part of us in the underdogs...trying to win against all odds...n every such victory makes us feel vindicated....cos in a way, it was our dream too....our "fairytale" ending.

Sports, has its own ways of giving us the most raw pleasures..

and perhaps, giving us a chance to learn from them as well...

case in point:

NY Giants (NFL) and Rajasthan Royals (IPL) and more famously,

Ivanisevic (finally, winning Wimbledon) & India (83' , T20 'n World series)

its hard to find a friend.

In this materialistic world of today....how difficult is it to find a friend..really?!!


i mean, a real friend...not just an aquaintance....or someone whom you'd call on to pass time...or have fun once in a while....or maybe even daily....there are many levels of aquaintances, u see...as the days go by...we have a new circle of friends...or rather "aquaintances" as frens is a much abused word...how easy is it to grow apart...with the older set.....

things change...and change, we have been taught, is the one constant in life....and its required to take our lives forward....days fly by....and things change even more.... :)


and we grow up...its even more difficult to get a real friend.....freindship...its almost as pure a relationship as love...just that the love we are talking about here, is devoid of you know what...
this probably makes it even more stronger cos you are so connected with someone emotionally...you know you can "depend" on them...and they will act/help without any vested interests...you can trust them with your worst nightmares.....yu can enjoy a beautiful sunset with them......chatter endlessly about unimaginable dreams....yu can see through them and vice versa...and they would even go to the lengths of landing themselves in trouble to see u out of it..and not regret it.. ever..

this is probably why we find that most of our good freinds were made in school....even more in junior school....cos then we saw the real "us"...without any pretensions...and hence it was easier to trust....and be trusted...and so, when we r with them there is a sense of belonging and no one-upmanship... now, there are walls between us which we have built so carefully....brick by brick...layer by layer.....they protect us....you know, life in a metro teaches you that....what, to grow cold, indifferent, selfish and insecure....how to lose yr innocence......

Technology is changing how we connect in a big way...we know way more ppl than any generation before us, yes..and.why so we care abt it soooo much...simple...yeah, cos networking always pays...reason enough?!!...i dare say, yes...cos it will help in loads of gains....all kinds....to each his own....we are popular....yes....just look at the 60 odd fans i have....the no. of calls, msgs, scraps, mails and wall entries i get on my b'day....i never knew so many ppl cared abt me...i feel honoured, man!!

Every other conversation starts with a "whats up"...the ways/style of saying which have been reinvented godzillian times....this sounds rational too, actually....we r so busy, caught up with things all the time....so many things must be up, yaar...sadly, we dont really care to share it with the other "friend"...and reply with a nm....which obviously means nothing much...sob sob....noone actually cares to know how are you doing...they just have to keep on with these formailities....networking, again...you see.......


how many meaningful relationship we are building....i dunno...what the hell is a meaningful relationsip anyway...you got to b practical!!....moreover, we are overworked, overstressed and underpaid(n will always continue to b so...)..and yeah, is there ever a thing like enough monies :) ......

so, dude....we are happy doing what we are....this is life we dreamt abt...we have everything figured out...7 digit salaries and stuff that will come with it...and we are on our way....


is it so, really !

A Dream within a Dream

When we are young, we are attracted/bamboozled/misled by many things....sometimes, so much that we think it wld be the most cool thing that cld happen to us.....more often than not, they happen to be materialistic in nature....sometimes, we even crave for a certain sort of lifestyle.....or a certain kind of personality.....n we dream on............


With time...experience...and ofcrs, wisdom that comes along with it........they become more like an illusion....i.e. as soon as we are close to achieving them, they suddenly seem not so great......we understand that the pros and cons of the lifestyles/ppl we wanted to become....and realise that we have to give up a part of ourselves to be like that......n its simply not worth it.....we keep on changing our dreams.......n move higher on the "Dream Hierarchy" :) ....where we now look at self actualization dreams....

Well, this is what shld happen ideally.....but there are possible loopholes along the way...which most ppl ard succumb to...they are so enamoured by the dream they had when they were young that it becomes their reality...'n they embark on a no-stop approach towards it....they totally lose the sense of who they are...and end of succeding in gettin what they deisred....but if they have sacriificed everthing else on they way to achieving it.....it really wasn't worth it....cos yu've become a totally different person now....someone yu wld have hated 5 yrs ago.....


And here, we're not even thinkin of the dreams of the unprivilaged ones....the actual needy ones....not the ones who will soon be gettin 49.5% reservation...like each one of us, god gives them the gift to dream too....n thoughts arrive from all directions.....beautiful thoughts, lovely days....but he's intelligent enuf to just let them go....n life goes on...dreamin that someday he'll atleast start living....rather than merely existing.