in an ideal world, we would like every relation to be the same.. that is, perfect...as in, having the freedom of telling what we feel, at that very moment, to everyone we meet over the course of day, year and life....and having the strength and wisdom to accept the repartees that come along...ofcrs, its impossible...and is mainly due to the a couple of facts...first, that we don't know people good enough when we meet them...so, we don't know how they will react...and secondly, cos we are so used to putting up a face and portraying a different and stronger/smarter me...to impress the junta....
its our insecurity acting gloriously in the second case, mostly....and it makes us soo soo different from the real us....infact, even to keep the inner you pure is such a challenge....so easy it is, to love your pretense and totally wanna be like him/her...afterall, we put it on to impress the world at large...what works for a majority around you should work for you as
well....but then, we realize that "you are as unique as everyone else"...and the ones who
understand this remain truly special....
we all have our mood swings...some more than others....some more than normal...they love living on the edge...swinging sideways...but it aint a fun ride...not soo when u r feeling crazy every now and then....and bored....yet, its again something totally personal....so, we shuld have the ability to isolate it from anyone around...and welcome the arrival of the 2nd person as an angel...esp when its someone you can relate to...at any level...easier said than done, again...mostly...sadly!
so, now that its clear in our mind, ki its impossible to have perfection in most rlsps...we lower our aim to something that seems totally human....almost like aiming at simple life after aiming at the moon and stars....this rationalization doesn't help either, as we see that people still lie or try to put words in your mouth...try to run away from the truth...fear their feelings...havent we spoken or heard, lots of times, the lie which is so blatant that we know even before it is spoken....to the few people that make your life a better life....doesn't it hurt us even a teeny weeny bit.!? maybe they hope that u wont b able to catch the lie...or the pretense....but as far as hopes go, pretty doomed this one is, from the start...you obviously know the person well enough to read his mind ...and lines.....and secretly pray they wouldnt say so.
is it really that difficult to put up a straight face and say what you really want to say....esp. to the precious few people...5 at max....every time....and i mean, every single time....
if we can do it...i think we have reached perfection in life...however, pompous we may sound.
afterall, having these 3-4 perfect rlsnsps thru the life is as close to a 21st century utopia, as it can be.
